Your in the bathroom watching BBC porn and jerking your dick. I think this means that Forced sissy training is the way for you. You found your girlfriends dirty panties and put them on. She has no idea you are addicted to watching BBC. You crave that BBC for yourself.
I think you should help that girlfriend of yours take some BBC. She will be more pleased with it and you will get to watch closely as he fucks her. I know what about you? Well maybe you put on her panties and some lipstick and they will laugh at you and maybe let you suck that BBC. Especially suck your ladies juices off of it.
Now look at you! You sucked a big black cock and in a way you were forced to do it. Now we may commence with your training, cum dump.